Postpartum weight loss, the good, the bad and the ugly….
Having a baby can be the most exciting, challenging and scariest thing a woman experiences. The changes your body goes through in order to create a tiny human is remarkable, but why is it difficult to accept those changes: the weight gain, skin color change and the skin stretching.
A woman’s body can do amazing things during and after pregnancy, but for some reason it is so hard to accept the changes our bodies make (or it’s hard for me to accept). During my pregnancy I started to gain weight rapidly and began having pain that was unimaginable in places that you can imagine. So exercise other than light walking was out of the picture. I was so ashamed of my body. I didn’t want to take pictures or be seen out. I refused to take maternity pictures because I hated the way I looked. Unfortunately, I have some regret now that I didn’t get maternity pictures to document the journey. People would comment on how beautiful I looked or that I had a glow. Unfortunately, I didn’t see it and never saw it.
Fast forward to a 70lb weight gain and giving birth to a 10.5lbs baby via c-section. For some reason, I thought or envisioned my body going back to pre pregnancy soon after birth. Well….it didn’t!
After I left the hospital reality set in that my body was not the same. It began to effect me mentally and emotionally. Not only had my round baby belly turned to a sagging belly, but I had stretched marks EVERYWHERE. Not to mention I was excruciating pain and still had to take care of a small human. The worst part was trying to find clothes that looked decent. My regular clothes still did not fit and my maternity clothes now looked silly (for lack of better words) due to my sagging belly. Needless to say I spent many days and nights crying, feeling ugly wondering if I would ever love myself again.
In the midst of all my emotional woes…I realized I had just created a little miracle and the love I felt for him was more intense than anything I’ve ever felt. I realized that he loves me unconditionally. That he would love me with or without my flaws. I realized I wanted to be a better person physically, mentally and emotionally for him.
There are three things that I felt were most important to remember when getting back to a healthy weight:
Allow your body time to heal after a baby. Regardless if the birth was vaginal or C-section. I was so hell bent on losing weight I started walking 3 weeks after giving birth. It was a major set back! The pain came riveting back and there were days I couldn’t even pick up or carry my baby. Time to heal is important. You don’t gain the weight in a few days so don’t expect the weight to come off in a few days. Slowly get back into your workout and listen to your body.
I can definitely say I was one of those pregnant women that gave in to all my cravings! So after pregnancy I had to be sure to cut back on fats or Carbs, but still eat enough to produce breast milk. I started to pay more attention to what I ate, when and making sure not eat late at night.
There are days I look in the mirror and I am brought to tears at the sight of my body, but then I remember my body has created a human. My body has accomplished something so great and not everyone gets to experience that. Then there are days I love myself so much for creating the best gift I have ever had.
MORAL OF THE STORY… love yourself regardless of how you look and you will start to feel better.
In the past 9 weeks I have managed to lose 55 of those 70 pounds with nutrition and light exercise. This experience has been one for the books and something I would never want to change.
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